Whatever happened to "that" girl?

Ok, so I feel a little better than I did last night. I would have removed the prior post, but I figure, I wrote it for a reason, might as well leave it. But in addition to it, I ponder to myself, do I care too much? Do I really read into things too much? I have been told that I do on numerous occasions, but I think it's finally sinking in. I can't help it, I'm passionate over thoughts...But maybe too much? My theory on it is that when whatever "it" is (that makes my mind go into critical meltdown mode) concerns someone I care about or deals with and issue that is big to me, that is when my mind starts going...But there are so many things that it happens with, which then takes me back to caring too much...Strange, bizarre, peculiar even! I dunno.

Today, I feel strange. Friends came over last night to hang out (and we were supposed to go to a party but that fell through when all the drama began). A guy who recently left work came over for a while, and it was nice to see him, but he said something that made me start thinking..."What happened to the girl we used to know." That was pretty much the statement he made to me on his way out. I kinda question, what did happen to that girl.

He asked what happened to the crazy-Goth-vampire chic who hated people and had a great disdain for the "typical" stuff in life. I mean, I can see a change. I know that I'm not the dark, dreary, "scary" girl I was when I started working downtown, but is that really a bad thing? Is it bad for me to be silly or cutesy or sweet? I don't think it is, but it was strange to hear it from someone else's mouth. Did I really make that drastic of a change, and if so, was it that bad?

I like the way I am now. I will admit, sometimes I feel weird or odder than normal because I actually smile a real smile and laugh a real laugh, but...Yea, I just dunno. I'm happy with the way things are. I'm happy with the way my life has taken shape. The man I am with, the friends that I have, all of the above amount to me being one happy camper. I think the change was pretty big, but it's cool. I guess it's kinda nice not having to be a "hard-ass" 24/7. It's nice to be accepted without having to have the facade of a mucho tough girl (it does pain me to admit that though, LOL).