The Move Aiding in Realization

Well, a week and a half and the move will be here. I'm very excited, but very nervous in the same bit.

Deer Run will be apartment number 4. Year number 5 being a "grown-up". Year number 5 living with my best friend and brother. We've known each other 4/5 of our lives...We'll have lived together for 1/5 of our lives...How cool is that?! I'm so happy that I get to move with my Yo yet again!

I'm not so nervous about the move itself, but moreover, what the move will entail. I mean, this is the first apartment out of Portage County, out of Streetsboro. I'm returning to my second hometown. The city of NOTHING to do! But it will be nice. To be a mile from my parents, a little over a mile from my brother and nephews, from a close friend and a family I baby sit for. It's exciting but so scary. This is a BIG step in the grown-up direction. Being closer to work is also a plus.

I think the hardest part of the move, though inevitable on any count, is the fact of how many things may change. It's going to be weird not being "conveniently located" to some people. I've never been in a "normal" relationship before, so I really don't know how to act, how to feel. I'm used to a different reality, a reality that I found out is nothing more than a figment of my imagination. Yes, it's a massive shock to the system...But I LOVE it! It's just scary not knowing what to expect. But I must say, everything that's happening gives me a feeling that I wouldn't trade for the world. It's something that I never thought possible again, and I must say, it's made me realize that I'm a lot more human than I give myself credit for. I feel real...And it's amazing.