It's a BRAND NEW Year

Well, it's a new year and I can't believe how awesome it is going so far. I know it's just the beginning. I know that we are just 17 days into 365...But I can't help but feel an overwhelming sigh of relief. I feel as though I am really free to live my life again. I needed for 2005 to be over. I needed to get it behind me, and be ready to let it stay behind me. I'm at the point right now.

Could it be because of surrounding circumstances? Could it be because I kept promising that after the year I would let the past go...And succeeded? Could it be because every year, I grow a little more, and I'm better able to work through the hard times and not let them impact me in a way that deteriorates my way of living? I don't know. And frankly, I don't care. I feel like me, the real me. I feel like the "act" that I had put on for so long is gone now, and that I can be myself.

Work is also a positive thing for me. I can't remember EVER going into work happy everyday. Maybe it's because of my position here? I'm "the voice". I'm "the face" (as my boss refers to me as). It just feels good being legitimately happy. I have nicknames for everyone, and I'm told that I brighten peoples days. That may be another reason why I try to be chipper, even when I'm tired or just blah.

All in all, this year is going better than I ever could have imagined. I'm leading a life that I've wanted to lead for a long time. I have my resolutions. I know what I have to do to make me 100% , and I know that it's going to take time. But I won't that get me down. Life may be short, but it's all what we make of the now...And what we make of the now, is what will determine our attitude for the future.