Cual es la punta de vida

It seems that it has come time for yet another moment of blahness...But why this time? Is it because things are going really well? Is it because I feel I am lacking one key element? Is it because blahness has become such a prominent part of my life, that when I don't feel it for a while, I unconsciously pull myself back into it for one reason or another??? I just don't know.

It just seems like there are some lingering issues that I either haven't fully accepted or figured out, and it's driving me insane. I finally have a packed schedule. I no longer sit on my ass every night, chilling in front of the television, bitching because there is nothing to do. I hook up with friends and family more than ever before, and it's great...But if it's so great, then what's the problem?

Part of me feels it's this month...So many thing happened in November in the past. Maybe this is me preparing for the month of December, what used to be my most favorite month of all time. Maybe it's just me prepping for something bad just in case something bad comes along. I think I am back to that point where I'm tired of being me. I want to see the person that so many other people see. I want to feel the way I once did...Anymore, I only feel that when I'm in dreams. I want to wake up feeling content and pleased with myself, not like I am so kind of failure for all the things I haven't yet accomplished...

I guess it all comes down to this question...This question with an answer that is so distant and so vague, it may never actually be solved...If anyone could answer it, God, they'd be beyond amazing...cual es la punta de vida? What is the point of life?