Lace up the Boots

If someone told you that you may be waken out of your nightmare, is there a way to prepare yourself to live in your dream? That is the question I am stuck pondering at this moment.

Just when I think I have some basis of "reality", something comes up and it is gone in a flash. Just when I think I have made some huge progress and have come to many conclusions, I learn that there was nothing conclusive about them at all. Everything that I believed may have been erroneously assumed and now I am left in a world of questions and wonderment. But where do I go from here? How do I step back and re-read the chapters I missed in what I thought was a closed book?

I just don't know where to go from here. I wish I could go back to the time where I believed in everything and knew nothing. I wish I could ask the questions that need answers, but I don't think I am prepared for what they may be. Again, it's all a gamble. I could either live with the confusion, hope, anxiety, wishes, and see what happens, or I can attempt to fast forward and find out what I yearn most to know. But will those answers be ready for me? Is it not the right time to seek out what I feel is detrimental t know in order to keep my sanity?

Life is too short to not be happy. It's too short to not try to get out there and do what you love and find out what you are truly looking for. But it's scary walking out into the darkness, with nothing but your hopes and dreams guiding you. So many things lurk around every turn, hide behind every bush and tree, and just wait for you to let your guard down so that they may strike. At this moment, I think I am lacing up my boots and putting on a hoodie, preparing to get out there and see what's going on. I am really scared though. Do I want to know the outcome of my quest? Would it be better to wait and see what happens before I go getting all adventurous? Only time will tell, as with everything that I am seeking in my life, only time will tell.