Craziness!

WOW. I finally have a "real" job! I'm going to be out of retail in less than two weeks. So most of my goals have been accomplished. I have a new car. I have my own apartment. I'm out of debt (for the most part). I have a wonderful group of friends. But there is still a piece missing. I don't mean to say that having someone would make me a better person, because I feel that I have come a long way on my own. I believe that had I not gone through what I did, I would not be the woman I am today. But I still feel empty.
I dunno, it's a crazy life I guess. There are parts of me that want to have a boyfriend. But I would totally miss my freedom, so do I really want one? My mom says that I need to enjoy life without having a man in it and being attached. I kind of agree, but it's a hard pill to swallow. I haven't been alone for more than three months at a time since I was 17 years old. I have always had someone there, even if it wasn't a complete commitment. So now what do I do?
Maybe once this job starts and I meet more people and begin hanging out with new people, my feelings will change. I mean, back in the day, we had people at the apartment all the time! Parties consisted of no less than 10 people every wee, and I do miss that. At least now I know who my true friends are and that they will always be there for me, but it sucks because we all can't get our schedules to work out and so we don't see as much of each other as we would like. Yep, this is one of those blah blogs.
But why should I be poopy? I'm about to embark on a whole new journey into life! I am a little scared, because this is a HUGE change, but I am excited all the same. Guess we shall see what happens from here!