Two years ago...

Two years gone by, and it seems like just yesterday all my "dreams" would come true. I got the proposal of a lifetime, and it seemed like there wasn't anything that couldn't be done. I was going to say "I do" to a life that I thought would be perfect... It's amazing how many things shifted, how many things changed, how what I once thought were the strongest and most undeniable feelings, turned out to be nothing more than nothing at all. Though I wasn't alone in having such a change of heart, it 's still and odd thing to have to deal with. Strength is a weakness at times, because to feel so strong in my convictions means I have to remember the past, and the pain that the memories bring back can feel unbearable.
Every so often I wish to have my life back. I want to relive the past few years and change some things so that there would be no "mistakes" and no "regrets", but then I have to force myself to realize, that everything happens for a reason, and without such "mistakes" and "regrets", I wouldn't be the person I am today. I have accomplished many things and have grown a lot as a person, so I guess I shouldn't feel remorse at all. No matter what I may think, had the past year or two not happened, it would have happened later in life.
I don't know what I'm trying to say. I don't know what I'm trying to accomplish by blogging this. I think that I'm just hoping that by saying all this, I will give myself another shot of strength and another feeling of contentment to get me through this rough patch of life. I am who I am, and I can't, nor do I want, to change that.