Dreams
Ok so I don't know what the heck is going on. I have been having the most vivid, life-like dreams lately and they are getting pretty freaky. I think someone from the great beyond is trying to get in contact with me, but why?
I have had at least 5 dreams of Bill in the past month and they are all the same, just a little different. In every dream, everyone thinks he is dead, but he walks into a room alive as you and me! When I ask him what's going on, he always says "Hey baby, I was always here". I don't know if it's just him trying to let me know that he is always watching out for me (and everyone else) or what but it's sooooo strange!!! I'm not complaining, because I love being able to see and talk to him. Also, after I have the dreams, I usually get up and get a drink of water or something, and I smell him. I can smell his scent and it is so calming.
It's sometimes hard, though, because I think of all the good times we spent together, especially in the summer and in the great outdoors. I remember the pool and the hot tub, July 4th, or staying up late, smoking cigarettes and just talking. I remember when he gave me my first ride on a motorcycle, and the feeling of the wind rushing around me was exhilarating! It's sad when reality hits and I know that we can never do those things again. I can never call him and just say hey. We won't be able to go to new restaurants or hang out a bar and have a few drinks. So all I have now are the memories.
I don't know what the dreams mean, all I know is how they make me feel. When I can see Bill, when I can hear his laugh or feel his hug, things don't seem like they're done and over with. He's always going to be my "daddy", and I really hope that he doesn't stop visiting, because it's nice to believe in guardian angels, but it's even nicer to know that they are right there beside you, every step of the way.
I have had at least 5 dreams of Bill in the past month and they are all the same, just a little different. In every dream, everyone thinks he is dead, but he walks into a room alive as you and me! When I ask him what's going on, he always says "Hey baby, I was always here". I don't know if it's just him trying to let me know that he is always watching out for me (and everyone else) or what but it's sooooo strange!!! I'm not complaining, because I love being able to see and talk to him. Also, after I have the dreams, I usually get up and get a drink of water or something, and I smell him. I can smell his scent and it is so calming.
It's sometimes hard, though, because I think of all the good times we spent together, especially in the summer and in the great outdoors. I remember the pool and the hot tub, July 4th, or staying up late, smoking cigarettes and just talking. I remember when he gave me my first ride on a motorcycle, and the feeling of the wind rushing around me was exhilarating! It's sad when reality hits and I know that we can never do those things again. I can never call him and just say hey. We won't be able to go to new restaurants or hang out a bar and have a few drinks. So all I have now are the memories.
I don't know what the dreams mean, all I know is how they make me feel. When I can see Bill, when I can hear his laugh or feel his hug, things don't seem like they're done and over with. He's always going to be my "daddy", and I really hope that he doesn't stop visiting, because it's nice to believe in guardian angels, but it's even nicer to know that they are right there beside you, every step of the way.
posted by Ill-Fated Butterfly at 1:30 AM
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