Sleepless Slumber

I'm stuck in a world between fiction and reality. I cannot seem to seperate the thoughts in my head, and my inability to do this, is slowly driving me insane.
I had a dream about you last night. You were laying in that bed, and I was the only one at your side. I was staring at the floor, trying to collect my thoughts, and when I looked up, your eyes were open. With the biggest smile and warmest laugh you said "Hi baby"! "Where have you been," I yelled as tears began to roll down my cheek and I lunged forward to give you a hug. You said, "I've always been here," and gave me another great hug. Trembling I picked up the phone and called...I called someone. Then it all gets blurry.
But was this just a dream? I've had strange dreams that seem to be polar opposites of the life I lead now, and the things that occur in them were the "what if's" that I pondered so much before. So have I somehow slipped into a worm hole and I am able to see what my life would have been like if I chose different paths? Did I force myself to remember something that never happened, but because I believe so strongly in the power of the mind, I inadvertantly began to lead a lie because I wasn't capable of accepting the fact that what I remembered wasn't real? What the hell? I don't know!