Hanging on to a Dream
Is it possible to actually let go of a dream? I've been trying to figure that out. And if it is possible, was the dream ever really a dream, or was it just something that you had once hoped for? It seems like it would be easier to let go of a hope than to let go of a dream, because a hope is just a feeling where as a dream is so much more. A dream is something that cannot be taken away from you. A dream is something that may get crushed, but it will never die, because it is stronger than anything. No one can tell you that your dreams are stupid or will never come true, because though they may "revolve" around a person, they cannot be controlled by outside parties.
I can say that lately I've been feeling very nostalgic. I cannot help but dig through photographs, re-read old journals, and just dwell in the great memories of the past. But what is this doing to me? It makes me smile for a little while, but then it seems to rip my heart out when I realize that those feelings of contentment and bliss are just part of a remembrance which is lingering in the past. I'm not saying that I'm depressed or not happy with my life now, but it's a different kind of happiness. Those memories that haunt my dreams make me wake up in the middle of the night and for a split second, I feel like I am still living them.
It's still a shock when I reach over in bed and don't feel someone next to me. It's weird to not have someone to call just to say "I love you and miss you to". It's strange not to have stable plans on weekends to go out with a specific person or have them come over after a date and just hold on to. I guess it all comes down to the fact that I tend to try to hold on to the past in an attempt to never lose the feelings that I felt then. Is that wrong? Is that bad? I think it would be if one held on so tightly that they never gave themselves a chance experience new things. If they felt as though they would never feel the way they once did. I know that one day I will have that special someone. I know that one day I will feel the way I did in the memories I can't forget. And I know that one day, all my dreams WILL come true!
I can say that lately I've been feeling very nostalgic. I cannot help but dig through photographs, re-read old journals, and just dwell in the great memories of the past. But what is this doing to me? It makes me smile for a little while, but then it seems to rip my heart out when I realize that those feelings of contentment and bliss are just part of a remembrance which is lingering in the past. I'm not saying that I'm depressed or not happy with my life now, but it's a different kind of happiness. Those memories that haunt my dreams make me wake up in the middle of the night and for a split second, I feel like I am still living them.
It's still a shock when I reach over in bed and don't feel someone next to me. It's weird to not have someone to call just to say "I love you and miss you to". It's strange not to have stable plans on weekends to go out with a specific person or have them come over after a date and just hold on to. I guess it all comes down to the fact that I tend to try to hold on to the past in an attempt to never lose the feelings that I felt then. Is that wrong? Is that bad? I think it would be if one held on so tightly that they never gave themselves a chance experience new things. If they felt as though they would never feel the way they once did. I know that one day I will have that special someone. I know that one day I will feel the way I did in the memories I can't forget. And I know that one day, all my dreams WILL come true!
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