One day at a time

*Sigh* I am having a very not-so-motivated day. I've done a bunch of stuff. Went to church, breakfast with the rents, watched a movie, went to Target...but I should be doing more. I feel like I'm wasting my day by just sitting here, but I really just don't feel like doing anything. I am feeling a bit gunky and gross though, so at least I can chalk it up to that, right?

I broke down in church today. Didn't mean to, but did. Luckily I didn't get all sobbing-mess of a person or I would have felt embarrassed. But Amazing Grace was sung and everything just hit me all at once. But I recovered. I still feel really confused and upset but normal. It's quite strange.

There are good moments and bad moments. It's totally to be expected and I know that. We just have to get through the initial shock... and then the shock wear-off and then we'll be golden. This is all still so new and so fresh...oof. Oof is all I can say.