Finding an old journal...

I seriously need to lay off reading old journals. But it's so strange and coinkydink how things come back into your life at the moment you're thinking about them (kinda).

So my dad dropped off a bunch of boxes at my house today that had stuff from my room. There was a journal I must have forgotten to pack in the journal box when I moved. So I opened it up and made it through about 20 pages...and they all deal with what I've been thinking about this past week! How crazy!

This Journal is the one that has about 3 years worth of craziness in it because there were long spells of no writing. But still, reading it kinda got me choked up and a little upset inside. I wish I had the emotions and feelings I had then. I know I can't wish life away or try and get back the past, but I can't help it! I read and remember that EXACT feeling and thought! It's so weird--almost like it was just yesterday.

Man, I seriously wish to get back way too much of the past I think...Why couldn't I feel the way I do about it now, then?!? I guess that's kinda like "if I knew then what I know now" huh? OOF.

OOF I say!!!