Emotions Running High

Oh my god. What the hell is up with this lunar cycle!? I mean I seriously feel like I could break down and cry at the drop of a hat. I've been having dreams about people who are long gone (both in death and in life). And recalling the dreams I just want to close my eyes and get back there. I want to know more! I want to converse more! I want to say the things I should have said. To do the things I should have done. To find out answers to the things that are (and forever will be) a mystery to me.

Why are these people coming back? Why are these feelings coming back? Why?!?!

BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I'm not so much a fan of this feeling. (Un)fortunately, the sadness actually makes me feel the way I used to, lol. Like I'm returning to myself, haha. That's so sick and sad to say. But it really is how I feel. I mean feeling the way I do REALLY takes me back to the college years (namely senior year). And things will get better, I know that, but it's like being sucked into a vortex of darkness and seeing the only escape getting farther and farther away.

Oye vey I say. I'm not even pms'ing! That's another unfortunate thing--because at least I could write it off on a crazy hormonal imbalance. But that's not the case...

OOF.