The sun'll come out???

I'm annoyed. Go figure, right? Just very totally annoyed. And the sucky thing is that annoyance isn't going to go away for a while because, well, change doesn't happen over night, right? Screw that noise. I just don't get it.

I hate being irritated. Especially when I'm irritated with myself. Because I can't escape myself. If I was mad at my boyfriend or best friend or anyone, at least I could just leave and get away from them and try to forget what annoyed me. But when I'm annoyed at myself, there is nowhere to run to and nowhere to hide. I am stuck, with no escape. And I can't turn my mind off soooooo I'm screwed.

OOF!

I had a talk with a friend today about living for the moment or living for the day and not always looking to tomorrow for a better day. But it's hard. It's so much easier to think ahead and slough off the todays...damnit.