1st Reality Smack

So there's a part of me that is just an unrelenting masochist...and it's pretty annoying right now! I keep looking back over old blog posts or at old emails and I get sad. But I shouldn't be sad, because those were WONDERFUL times. I guess I just miss them...those feelings...that way...the old days...whatever.

But such is life. We live and love, right? It's just been such a rough couple of days. To be expected, I know. But still just so freaking surreal.

Had the first realization that I'm officially out of his circle of friends, which is understandable (I'm not denying that) but it was my first major slap of reality. A member of the "wives" club mentioned that he told her while she was inviting him to her hubby's birthday party...and that she wishes me luck with the transition she hopes to talk to me from time to time... Again, I totally understand, it's just a little hard to take in. Not like we were super-duper close and I talked to her all that much, but it's just....yea...

I know this is only to get worse before it gets better...but at least I know that it will get better, right?