LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!

Seriously? SERIOUSLY?!? What the fuck?! Why can't he just NEVER speak to me again?! Omg I am shaking right now I am so upset, angry, pissed, kinda scared...GRRRRRRRRRRR. We dated 10 YEARS AGO!! GET OVER IT!!!

OMG I am just not in a happy mood right now. Not whatsoever! I'm so tired of living with a sense of fear shoved to the back of my mind. I am so tired of always looking over my shoulder or seeing someone that reminds me of him and instantly feeling like I'm going to pass out because I am so scared of him.

FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. And I know it's "silly" to be so worked up over this. But I can't help it. That asshole made my life a living hell after he threatened me, more moreover, my family. You don't DO that.

So here I am. Feeling like I did 9 or 10 years ago and I HATE that!!! I don't want to feel this way again. It's like he knows when I have almost completely forgotten or he's made it to the back of the mind that I never think about. Ususally I just get the text around what was our "anniversary" along the lines of "I'll never forget" but at least that I'm prepared for.

*sigh*