I am Jack's raging bile duct

That is how I feel. I feel that vile. That disgusting. That horrid.

I feel like a horrible person. And the problem is, I have every right to.

I am a bitch. I am snide. I am catty. And that is the problem, I never realized how much it hurt someone close to me. Man, that is a BIG life change I need to make. I knew it was there, and I thought I covered it well, but it's obvious that I didn't. Ouch.

I like to call tonight "Battle Royale" because I have never argued they way we did tonight. Like ever! It was scary. I have never felt so wretched in all my life. Which isn't good. But if it needs to change, it needs to change. End of story.

I said something that was way true...We're broken and I don't know how to fix it. At least that was agreed upon. Until we see eye-to-eye and agree on a solution, we never will. I hope we do soon...Because I don't want to fight anymore. I don't want to hurt anymore. But most of all, I don't want US to hurt or be broken anymore.