How much more can I take? Part II

How much more can I take? Always being shoved to the back. Always being the understanding one who gets stomped on, heart broken, feelings pushed aside. I can only take as much as I can take...and anymore I think I'm nearing my breaking point.

It is complete bullshit that I am the one getting hurt all the time for this. It is complete bullshit that THEY are putting him in a situation that is hurting him and making it more than it should be. We may not be married, but we are a package deal. And if that doesn't mean something to you, then too damn bad, because it means something to us.

I really am on the verge of breaking...I haven't felt this kind of pain in...I don't think I have ever felt this kind of pain. My heart feels like it is being stabbed over and over and over again. And that's not right. When things are going good, they're GREAT! But when things start going off...they all go to shit.

I'm not really sure what to do...I said if it happened again, we'd be through...And it did happen again, but we're not through, because I don't feel like it should be over. I think I'd know if it was meant to be over...And I know it's not. It all comes down to being an issue of how much I'm willing to take or put up with...how much...