Good Advice...Brought to You by a 15-year old

A "little girl" I used to babysit, who is not so little anymore, seeing as how she is going to be a freshman in high school said something to me that had to be one of the most insightful and awesome points a "youngtser" could offer to me...Let me start at the beginning.

Amy asked me if I had any advice for her for high school, because as excited as she was, she was also incredibly nervous. OMG. So I thought back and told her everything that I wish I had known or thought. When I finished my spiel of insight, I finished by saying something along the lines of how much I miss school. (As much as I hated high school, I do wish I could go back and do it again--even if I never changed anything---same goes with the rest of my life, but I digress.) When she emailed me back, she thanked me but followed up with, "STOP! You're wasting your life away missing your past."

Holy crap! She made a great point! I really am wasting my life away thinking and longing to relive the past!

I wonder why it is I can't seem to let go of the past and enjoy the today? I mean, I know I blogged about it before, but why can't I enjoy the now??? I do enjoy it, but I feel like I mentally regress a lot more. It's just so queer to me!!!

I love my life--I love my boyfriend--I love my friends--I love my family--my house--my job--EVERYTHING. But why do I constantly look back and wish to go back? Is it because I wish I would have listened to the advice of, oh I dunno, EVERYONE, and not wished my youth away? Soooo crazy. Sooo weird. I'm trying to work off of what she said and STOP.

I'm also working on getting back to the old me--the care free me. The one who who was crazy outgoing and totally content in her own skin. I think it'll start happening more once I get back to the dark-haired version of myself...baby steps to get me back into my own skin...muahahahaha.