BAM! Reality Check

It's not everyday you get a reality check that snaps your head back and makes you reevaluate the person you have become. Today I was told that I've been acting arrogant...and as much as that hurt to hear, I can kind of see how that could be true. I never thought I was acting arrogant mind you...I was just acting, I don't know what the word is. But I am truly embarrassed by it.

So yet again, I'm on a mission to change something about myself, but this time, it's something that shouldn't even be an issue. I know I am heavily opinionated, but I guess I need to put my opinions in check and not be as free and open with them as I normally am. Now that I am seeing how others may perceive my attitude, I realize that it really does need a change....especially for the better.

I guess it's the same with how I carry myself--the things I do--the way I act with/to people. I do need to get better with that, and that is something that I've known for a while. It's just I get this weird, anxious feeling inside where I just feel awkward, and that's when I start acting "funky".

So here we go again. Another mission...I hope I don't fail. I guess failure isn't an option though, because I don't want to the "that" girl. The one who is known as a bitch or an over-opinionated cunt. That's definitely NOT how I want to be known...I just hope it's not too late.