Am I really as bitchy as I feel?

Am I a bitch? I mean, what exactly is it that makes someone a bitch? I feel like my willingness to speak what's on my mind and say how exactly I feel or confirm who is pissing me off or just flat out state my opinion on ANY matter makes me a bad person. Even when I'm in my "safe" company (ie, those who I can speak my mind to about anything and everything) I feel like somehow what I'm saying is coming across over-opinionated and making me out to be a downright BITCH!

And if this is the case, why am I letting it bother me. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. And I guess maybe the way I need to look at it is that not everyone is "ballsy" enough (ballsy like me that is) to say what really needs to be said. Perhaps that mindset is the wrong way to go though...

I don't know. I just feel really down on myself right now because all I can keep thinking is that I am this horrible person who is WAY too over-opinionated and outspoken and who seriously comes across looking like an f'n c*nt...all because I speak what's on my mind.

Is it really so bad? Or is this me making WAY too much out of a situation, which isn't even a situation to begin with?!?! Did any of this even make sense?! I don't know! *sigh* freaking over-emotional day of days!