Censorship

I've never censored myself. I've never posted a blog, but then pulled it down for fear of what someone would say...but I did...I did! I actually wrote something, posted it, then pulled it down shortly after...WTF?!

I know I mentioned it in a post eons ago, but I sometimes worry that my outlet for venting, my outlet for escaping my mental prison, my outlet for saying what I want to say because I have forbidden myself from actually saying whatever it is out loud is no longer an outlet, because I can't fully be me...Did that make sense? It's insanity!

Do I fear the repercussions? Do I fear others will change their opinion of me? Do I fear that I am exposing myself too much? I have no idea, but it seriously sucks. I guess I could always just create a new blog and not give out the info and if people find it, they find it...but On The Cliff's Edge is MINE! An Ill-Fated Butterfly is what I am! I don't want to abandon it just because...I'm scared...

Fuck.

To be continued...