Opening Up...It's a lot harder than it seems

Why is it so much easier to say you're going to do something, than to actually do it? I wish it wasn't that way. But then I guess life would be easy, huh?

I harbor many-a-things, a butt-load of which should have been released to sail out into the sea of the past a while ago. Why can't I let it go? I can only read so many "self help" articles that repeat the same advice over and over before I get bored with them.

I know I need to be more communicative when it comes to things that bother me, but then I feel like all I would be doing is bitching. (Bitching more than I normally do?? Oh that, is a scary thought). But I also feel that if I say what's bothering me, it might hurt another person. Even if I say it in a nice way, it might still come across as bitchy or mean. The other tough thing is when I have VALID reasons with why I'm upset, but actually bringing them into the open could seriously offend someone or make them feel icky (because I am 110% RIGHT).

Aye aye aye. Life's a crazy ball of wax I tell ya. Like I've posted before, there are good days and there are bad days. Today feels like a semi-off day. I have things I'd like to say or face, but I really don't want to get into an argument or feel like shit for saying them out loud and then regretting them later. Once something is said, you can't take it back (that's something that has been DRILLED into me). But if I don't say it, how do I get it off my chest. Unfortunately, writing or blogging about it just doesn't do the trick anymore.

We shall see I guess. Gotta take things one step at a time and choose the battles I plan to engage.