Bashings

I don't know if there's been something in the water or what, but it seems that for the past week, it has totally been a bash-me kinda time. I have had so many comments made against me I could just spit nails (after the pain a/o sadness leaves me).

Am I really a bad person? I mean, honestly, is karma trying to bitch slap me for something I did? I really have no clue what I could have done to deserve all this crap. There are certain things that HAVE gone right, I don't want to sound like a whiny little bitch, but it just seems like right when something goes fantabulously right, something happens as a counteract.

I told one of my friends, I don't want to seem like I'm taking things for granted. I don't want to sound like I don't appreciate and I'm not grateful for all the wonderful things I have going on for me, but I just really wish I'd stop getting the shit-end of the stick on a weekly, if not day-to-day, basis. I just want people to think before they speak and realize just how hurtful things that are mis-phrased can be.

Any finally, as said in a previous post. I just want to feel like I'm number 1. Like I don't have to compete against the world in an attempt to get time...Will it happen? Hehe, we shall see...