My Realization: Part Three

I'm not insecure...I'm anti-imperfection!

I am against that which I feel is not perfect. I am against all that I feel is not the object of perfection, that which is what drags me down. The things that I see everyday, the things that I feel make me not so "awesome" are the things that I let get to me. But why do I do that?

I've always prided myself on not caring what other people think...Other people (meaning those which are outside my realm of friends or most cared abouts), I feel, shouldn't affect how I feel about the person I am. But anymore, I let my ideas of what should or should be, make me feel like less of a person.

No, I am not the size I would like to be. No, I don't feel I am the beauty that people say I am. No, I am not content (100%) with the way I want to be, but that's going to take time...But I'm stuck in my quandary...Will I ever achieve that "perfection"? Or am I destined to always yearn and seek the unattainable, and never be able to get it...Because that is what keeps us going...The strive for the unattainable...