Here we go again...

I'm on the toll road of life...And I don't think I have enough to pay what the tollbooth is asking for...

I feel like the hamster wheel of my mind is smoking right now. It's going too fast. I can't seem to slow it down, and I'm ready to just fall and see where I get thrown.

I feel so stressed. I feel like I'm running in circles-- or that I'm in a labyrinth and every turn I make, I wind up at a dead end. I try to climb the walls, but they're too high and too smooth. I can't get a grip, but if I do, I never can make it over the top, and slide back down onto the dirt path...feeling hopeless and lost.

So why the crazy analogies? I wish I could say. I wish I could write out everything that's on my mind right now, but every time I try, the words get stuck at my fingertips, and nothing comes out. Each time I try and open my mouth, the words get lost in my breath...Such is life.

I'm not sad. I'm not upset. I'm just so far lost in thought, I don't know how to get out. There's lots of things that are making this time in my life especially trying. I'm attempting not to dwell on the things I cannot change, the things I have no control over, but I don't think I know how to do that. If I'm thinking about "stuff", those thoughts run rampant and overtake all sense of reason with me...Argh I say. ARGH!!!