Oh so confused!

So confused. And I hate being confused. This is definitely one situation I can honestly say I have NEVER been in before IN MY LIFE. I mean, how do all signs point one way...while all "signs" point another? I just don't get it. I mean, is this life's way of f'n with me? Or is this my way of learning some kinda of lesson? Or something about myself? Or something about lust, love and happiness? I just don't know. It boggles the mind.

I feel it could be a lesson...in telling people too much? In spilling too much of my life. Given I really didn't spill to people who didn't matter too me...I guess it's bad that I have that many close friends, lol.

Soooo yea. I guess we shall just have to see where this takes me...