OUT OF CONTROL!!!!!!!

I have never felt so out of control in all my life.

Everything seems to be spiraling and I have no control over it! How do I fix what's broken? How do I get over the things I need to and accept what is and what's not!? I can't do everything at once, damnit! I'm trying my best to be a good friend. I'm trying my best to stop the "awkward" feelings I have about a bunch of different situations, but it's going to take time! I have too much else going on right now to try and balance that out with everything else.

Ok, so I SUCK as a friend. I get it. I FUCKING SUCK. I'm selfish. I'm a bitch. I'm all about me right now. So sorry that I can't be Miss Perfect and adequately handle/deal with things like everyone seems to think I should.

BAH.