Panic Attack

Holy God. I just had an actual panic attack. I haven't had a full-blown one of those in a long time! I didn't dig it. Wasn't fun. Especially because I was at work when it happened. All of a sudden something just hit me and I felt the internal freak out commence. Luckily, I've gone through this enough times before and knew what to do. So I closed my door for a few minutes and was able to calm myself down and get myself composed. OOF! That wasn't cool.

I hope this doesn't turn into a recurring thing. I really don't like feeling myself spazz. I guess I need to stay away from my triggers and then I won't get attacked. HA! I'm an idiot. DOH!

There we go...I'm getting back to "normal." I'm starting to feel a bit more like myself. Now to just keep it going. The one thing that I noticed is that as much as I HATE panic attacks...I almost felt more like my real self by having one. Like it brought back a surge of emotion and mental state that I felt comfortable with. So even though it was spazzy, I felt an inner-calm, nostalgic feeling that I kinda miss. Weird....