Oof...Here we go again...

I had a dream that was action-packed full of passion last night. I almost didn't want to wake up from it. The feeling was just so intense and amazing and I felt this awesome sense of love. It was so cool.

Life's been kind of scary lately. I haven't been sleeping very well because I have had a million things on my mind. And of course I can never fully chill with any of them.

I've been doing a lot of "what if" thinking (which is NEVER a good thing). And it's not just the typical, old-school "what if" I had done something thinking. It's futuristic "what if" stuff too. Like what if XXXX happens...I hate second-guessing and pre-guessing myself. Yeargh.

I think too damn much. I know that. I can't help it. That's just my nature. Over-thinking everything is what I do. And I used to be able to write to make the pain go away. I mean, writing came easy to me too! But anymore, I just can't even do it--which sucks, because that was always my outlet.

Oof. I really hope this all dies down soon...