First "One of Those Nights" of 2010

Ok. Bad night. Very, very bad night. And why? I have no idea. I just got into one of those moods where I don't really want to be around anyone. Where I just want to wallow in self-pity and inner angst. Where I can't make heads or tails from my emotions and how I feel.

I'm just so tired of feeling like I'm raging on the inside, but can't seem to get it out on the outside. I can't stand not being able to say what I really think. I can't stand not being able to express what I truly want to say.

So I wonder...am I going against my resolution already? 5 days into the New Year and I am being a traitor to myself by not saying what I want to? Hmmm, that is a good question. At this stage in the game I just don't want to come across as bitchy as I did then.

Wow...I wish I could go back. Not to change anything, but to do it all again one more time. Maybe enjoy it a little more instead of rushing through it.

Oh life...what a bitch.