Too Complicated

Oye vey...Kinda having a day/night today. Lots of stuff swirling in the noggin...I'm not too keen on any of it.

I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, and I don't like that. But I can't help it. I mean, things are different now than they were 3 weeks ago (different in a good way) but I can't help but be scared they're going to revert back. I know that one thorn is just waiting to stab me in the side again... I'm not a fan of living in that kind of fear.

I'm just so confused. Confused as to what I'm confused about. Things are going great, why question them...I just have an uneasy feeling lurking in the depths of my stomach and it just won't go away. And that is what's bothering me. And also, I can't really bring it up to talk about, because that, unfortunately, will trigger some sort of fight or argument and I really don't want to start something over nothing.

So I just don't know. I hate getting upset over nothing, but again, I can't help it. It's complicated and it shouldn't be.