Trying to let go

"There are places I remember all my life, though some have change. Some forever, not for better. Some have gone, and some remain. All these places have their moments, of lovers and friends, I still can recall. Some are dead and some are living, in my life I loved them all. And with all these friends and lovers there is, no one compares with you. And these mem'ries lose their meaning, when I think of love, as something new. And I know I'll never lose affection, for people and things that went before. I know I'll often stop and think about them. In my life, I loved you more. And I know I'll never lose affection, for people and things that went before. I know I'll often stop and think about them. In my life, I loved you more. In my life, I loved you more".

And there it is. I never listen to the Beatles, but this song seems to be very pertinent to life. I remember singing it in high school, and not fully feeling or understanding the power of it. I do now. Every place does have its moment. Every thought, every memory, every tiny remembrance has the power to break down walls within a person. And though this may be a good thing, at times, it's not. It's great to remember times past, but it's hard to let them go and accept that some of those times cannot be re-lived or brought back, no matter how much one tries.

Also, I need to be better prepared for answers I don't want to hear when I ask a question that has been plaguing me. I seem to set myself up a lot, and when I do, I get slammed down into the ground. I try to live in my "idealized" world and usually wind up getting lost in it, and when reality slaps me in the face, it bruises me inside. The sting doesn't go away, and the marks remain. But how much longer will this be? How much longer will I endure this perilous trek through remembrances of times past? I guess I'm going to have to work at letting go of the past, and opening up to the future. Though I feel I missed mine, I know there is more than one shooting star out there, and I just have to be patient in waiting for the next one, and hope that when I catch it, all my dreams will come true.