Surge of Empowerment

I can't see the bottom of the lake, but it all seems so crystal clear. Atop the glassy surface, it looks like the calmest of calm days, but below, whirlpools and schools of fish stir everything up, creating the realm of undertow.
Will I be sucked in? I don't know. I have never felt as focused as I do today. I still feel as though I am stuck in the middle of a fog, but I don't feel as lost as I once did. It's like I am in the eye of the storm, but I am not scared that when it passes over, I will be sucked up and spit out. I will then be able to fly!
Maybe I should run for it! Maybe I should just do it and dive head first into the wind and see if it will carry me away. I'm tired of waiting for those two bitches (fate and destiny) to drop by. I am going to create my own fate and make my own destiny, and I don't need anyone else to help me. I can do this one on my own. Yeah, it's gonna suck and I know I will probably lose my motivational force at the time I need it the most, but so what? I have gotten through far worse stuff than this and I'll be damned if I don't make it. Hell, if I lose the battle, and get killed in the war, I will come back and haunt...Because this girl DOESN'T give up!