And it all falls down

And so it all starts again. What the hell am I doing?! This school thing is beyond aggravating! The feeling of apprehension that I had before the semester started still lingers on my mind. Do I really want to do this? Am I mentally ready to do this? I am so scared that I am making the wrong decision. I thought I knew what I wanted to do, what I wanted to be; but did I just pick the only thing that sounded appealing to me? Did I pick the occupation because I knew there was nothing else out there that sounded like it would be worth doing life long? I want to write! I want to have my own business and do my own thing, but what am I supposed to do now? I pay for school out of pocket, and I fear that I am wasting my money. I was told that I need to enjoy what we are learning, or I wont learn a thing. I need to have a passion, because without it, I am going to school in vain. I don't know what I want anymore. My life is getting back on track, and I want to concentrate on that aspect. Do I really want school on top of that? I just don't know what to do!? I'm scared to make the wrong decision and the right mistake!