What is the meaning of anything?

What is the meaning of anything anymore? How many times will I ask myself, why how many times? What's the deal?!?!
There comes a time in everyone's life where the answers are so apparent, that you cannot miss them. So why can't everyone else see them that way?
How many times can I say I'm sorry, before the words are meaningless??? A friend told me that her fiance and her don't say "I love you" every time they talk, because if they did, the words would lose meaning...is this true? Do words just become habit and have no depth or truth to them after a while??? I just can't figure it out!!!!
I just feel like I am standing on the edge of a cliff, and I'm waiting for a push or a gust of wind to send me over the edge! Why is everyone so much more "holier than thou"? How is that one mistake can make life such a chaotic piece of work?! Let the truth be told that I stepped up to the plate and I braced myself for the impact of everyone's words and judgements, but I wasn't prepared to lose everything that I held close to my heart.
What's the meaning of this blog? Is it incessent rambling and just words combined to form sentences, or is there more to it than that?!?! The decision is yours, and yours alone...