Life's questions

Life is repeating itself. I know this for a fact. Freaky-weird de ja vu stuff has been happening for quite some time now. The scary part is, the SAME things have been happening that once happened before, but they have different endings or circumstances now. I can't explain it. It's so strange, but also so exciting. Maybe this is something that just goes to prove that history does repeat itself.
I feel like I am in a create-your-own-story book. It's so odd to relive things that I thought were just closed chapters in the book of life. It's like these ideas, these "relics" have new meaning and are being reinvestigation, but not by my will, by something greater than that.
Everyday I feel like I am getting a little stronger and a little better, but then there's a flash and I am doing something over again. Will the choices I make and the things I do different actually help in changing my future? Will I magically wake up one day and my life will be the way it was supposed to be before everything got all screwed up? Is anyone else going through what I am going through right now? It's these questions that keep me up at night, and these questions I hope will be answered in the near future, so I can rid myself of this insomnia of thought, that's slowly driving me mad.