Going for the Gold

It's funny how life can throw you into a tailspin at the funniest times. You think that everything is going your way, that your life is gonna get back on track and will never de-rail again, but then it does. Why does the heart have to affect what the mind thinks so much? Why does the mind have to attempt to control the heart?? It's a never ending internal conflict that just screams to have an end or even just a truce.
My life sounds like an overdramatic soap opera, but it's really not. It's just that emotions run so high all the time, nothing ever seems set. I know I am trying to rush things, but it's hard not to. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and I know there is happiness in that light. But like I said before, the train of my life seems to keep breaking down or derailing whenever I think that I can achieve that euphoric feeling. "Life may be long" as someone once told me, but if tomorrow never comes, is it still considered to be long? What if you never woke up? Could you say you were honestly happy and did everything in your power to make yourself totally happy?
Life's too short to waste even a second. If you love someone, you should want to be with them, to take away their pain, or even just to rekindle the friendship that the two of you hold so deeply. Everysecond of every day may seem a little too extreme, but talking on the phone for a brief chit chat every other day isn't too much. It's not like either of you are answering to each other, but it would be a way to make the comfort level rise. Why live your life in fear or in hang-ups? You have to take that chance, make the plunge, take a leap of faith, and go with the flow. Stop worrying what everyone else will say, and just go for it. To truly live life, one must learn that the only way that they can live it for and with someone, is by first living it for themself, and realizing what is most important to them.