This life I lead
Ok, SERIOUSLY?!!? How in God's good name do I ALWAYS attract raging psychos? I mean really?!?!? Is it karma? Do I just emit some beacon of attraction that calls to guys who are overly obsessive?
So I finally felt like I was getting to a good place. Even said "fine, we can switch to 'going steady' and call each other boyfriend/girlfriend..." That status change didn't even last 24 hours before it ended! And why? Why you may ask? Because the next morning I get an email starting out "I can't do this anymore" and continued into this schpiel about me not being ready and blah blah blah. After reading that, I knew there was something DEFINITELY not right about the situation. Because every time we were together, things were grand, but the second we were apart he flipped into over-bearing, need to be together-why don't you want to be with me mode.
I work 2 jobs, not because I want to, because I HAVE to. So I don't have a lot of spare time. Where he wanted me to pull free time to spend with him, I have no idea. But what I was offering wasn't enough. And I told him SINCE THE GET-GO that I am NOT ready for serious-serious but I am willing to take it slow, let things blossom and go from there. Which he "accepted"...not really. I even stepped outside my comfort zone by agreeing to go BF/GF.
Not cool. This is SOOOOO totally remniscent of another psycho situation I had to deal with in the past. And JUST when I'm finally feeling somewhat "at peace" with that original one, this happens! BAH! I just hope it simmers down and gets let go and nothing happens...
So I finally felt like I was getting to a good place. Even said "fine, we can switch to 'going steady' and call each other boyfriend/girlfriend..." That status change didn't even last 24 hours before it ended! And why? Why you may ask? Because the next morning I get an email starting out "I can't do this anymore" and continued into this schpiel about me not being ready and blah blah blah. After reading that, I knew there was something DEFINITELY not right about the situation. Because every time we were together, things were grand, but the second we were apart he flipped into over-bearing, need to be together-why don't you want to be with me mode.
I work 2 jobs, not because I want to, because I HAVE to. So I don't have a lot of spare time. Where he wanted me to pull free time to spend with him, I have no idea. But what I was offering wasn't enough. And I told him SINCE THE GET-GO that I am NOT ready for serious-serious but I am willing to take it slow, let things blossom and go from there. Which he "accepted"...not really. I even stepped outside my comfort zone by agreeing to go BF/GF.
Not cool. This is SOOOOO totally remniscent of another psycho situation I had to deal with in the past. And JUST when I'm finally feeling somewhat "at peace" with that original one, this happens! BAH! I just hope it simmers down and gets let go and nothing happens...


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