Back to Indecisive

It's funny. I was feeling so good, and then all of a sudden, that feeling shifted.

Not to sound weird or conceited or whatever the word I'm searching for is, but I have the opportunity to start again (a couple opportunities)...but I just don't know. As much as I want to, I feel like there's something holding me back. But I don't know what it is. Fear? Uncertainty? Unreadiness? Sadness? I don't know what it is. It's just crazy.

I have this "criteria" I'd like to hit, and no one seems to hit all the points of it, or if they do, there's an extra little add-on I wasn't counting on. So confusing. So insane. But what is holding me back?

Am I really not ready? I mean, I can't lie, I do kinda dig the whole single thing. But on the other hand, I miss having someone. I feel like I swing back and forth everyday. I know I'm usually indecisive, but lately, I am more so than ever! OOF!