All about the craziness of life...

Sooooo I was feeling pretty damn headstrong, then today hit, and I'm not so sure anymore. I know I can't let what other people say influence me. I know I shouldn't let that little "what if" voice in my head take control of everything. But I don't think I can help it. I mean, that's just me. And I know giving in is how I get into trouble...But is it worth it?

I said I'd never do it again. I said I learned my lesson...one too many times. But did I really? Or did things just not work out the way I had hoped and I had to blame it (if not fully, partly) on something aside from what was really do blame? Wow. I am being pretty damn vague, eh?

Oh I don't know. I don't know anymore. I dig being single. I really do. It's kinda nice not having to answer to anyone. It's kind of nice to think of myself first and foremost. But I do miss having someone. I do miss having that shoulder/chest to sleep on. I miss having that person to say good night to, or look forward to saying good morning to. But am I ready for a new relationship? As much as I'm all about preaching about getting back on the horse, could I actually do it if the opportunity presented itself?

I don't know. Working damage control for a friend who was upset to find out her ex-boyfriend was dating someone made me start wondering. I always said the break-up would fully hit me when I found out he was dating again. I had a dream he was dating someone from work. If it was true...how would I feel? But this is not about him. It's about me. It's about the possibilities (maybe) that lay before me.

*Sigh* Ohhh life. How great thou art!