Up on the pedestal...

WOW. So I am really not used to so much attention. And while it's "cool," it's also a little overwhelming...but in a good/bad way. I don't know. I think I'm being over-sensitive to a lot of stuff. I'm also trying to not ignore gut-feelings (which I can't tell if I'm having or just thinking I'm having).

My biggest concern is leading someone on. I don't want to do that. I hate doing that. It's not like me to do that. So I am trying to just keep things level. Not talk ahead of myself. Not get too into anything. Put the kibosh on anything that doesn't make sense to me or makes me feel uncomfortable. Sheesh, that is so much easier said than done.

I'm just not used to being put on a pedestal. It's kinda scary up here. I'm worried the wind's going to knock me down at some point.

Again, my biggest fear is just leading him on or him rushing too fast. I don't know how casual dates work. I don't know if there are rules and procedures that need to be followed. I do know I'm not ready/don't want to go exclusive (at least not right now). So that should probably be faced sooner than later. I should google casual dating and see what results I find, because God knows I have NO CLUE how that works.