1 Month Today

It's been a month today since we broke up. It doesn't feel like it's been a month...sometimes it feels longer, other times it feels shorter. Regardless, it's still almost hard to wrap my mind around.

I was clipping coupons (like I always do) and kept cutting out boy HBC ones...and then it dawned on me that I'm not going to be buying those anymore. It kinda got to me. But then I took a deep breath and smiled and thought back on the good times. That helped me get through it.

I have a new bed now. A new mattress too. It's quite comfy. I'm glad to be back in the master bedroom. I just need to get a TV now...because at night when I'm in there alone, I start to think too much. But I'm doing good. I'm being strong.

There are times when my mind takes over though...where I start wondering things I don't want to know the answers to (because with my luck they'd be what I am most "afraid" of). So I just try and shrug them off and go on with my day. Sometimes it's easy...other times it's almost impossible, but I'm just taking it one day at a time. Because that's all I can do.

I still can't believe it's been a month. 5 weeks ago we were together...4 weeks ago we weren't. Mind-blowing...