New Mantra Time

Well, I have been internally brooding for a little while now. Yesterday is when it came to the surface and my entire being began brooding. I know what the issue is...I just need to get over it. I think the addendum to my current mantra shall be "if it's not enough to bother others, I will not let it bother me" (or something to that extent).

I used to be able to internalize, yet live a perfectly "normal" life on the outside. But anymore, not so muchie. I think perhaps it is because my way "out" was to write, and I haven't been doing much of that (actually, none of that). Maybe I will have to pick it up again and see if it works. I don't like being hum-glum. I don't like feeling sad or FREAKING THE F OUT. I do though, because so many thoughts are whirling, I feel like I will never get a break...

So I guess the first step is to stop letting things hit me like they do. If things don't bother someone closest to the source, why should I let them bother me? Right? In the words of my wise Aunt B..."You are awesome, he/she is not". It's that simple. Simple and straight forward. If no one else is affected by what's going on, I sure as hell shouldn't be! (And just as a side note to make me feel better, feeling this strongly about stuff just goes to show that I care a HELL of a lot more than the average Joe about others and their feelings even when the sentiment is not reciprocated. HA! Go me!)