Thrill of the hunt??!?!

Well, it seems I have hit that time in life where I need to make a BIG decision...but I am scared to death to do it. Buying a house is a HUGE thing. I know I am just being a baby and that's why I'm scared to put in a bid, but...

AHhhhhhh. I always thought it would be so easy! I mean, I figured I would be totally at ease with the entire process, but I'm not. Is that bad? Maybe that's what is freaking me out, that I feel nervous which makes me think I am making the wrong choice? Could that be it? I think it might be that. I'm not scared to make the commitment, so what am I scared of??? I wish I knew.

And it does feel rush, though it doesn't, it does. Does that make any sense at all? We have been looking for a while and this is the first one we found that we can move into and we both like...So what is my hold up?! I hate it because I feel like I am going to be letting someone down if I go for it. But who? This is our choice! No one else's, so what am I so afraid of?

God I have no idea how I got so neurotic!!! Have I always been this way and just never realized it?!?!?

Well, I guess the next follow-up could be the BIG decision that was made, so for now I must only say...To Be Continued...