Feeling lost again...

It's absolutely amazing to me how neurotic I have become over the past few years. What happened to that brazen, outgoing, take-no-prisoner's attitude I used to have?! I work myself up over the silliest little things. I get myself so sick to my stomach, all because, I'm afraid of what the response to a question will be or because I'm worried that maybe I'm asking too much or that I am out of line...What the hell?! I don't get it!

I know I'm a caring person. Maybe too caring? Maybe that's what the issue is. I DON'T KNOW!! I feel as though part of the time I'm walking on eggshells, the other part I'm digesting what the outcome "could" be and then other times my thoughts are trapped in a sea of malted hops and bong resin! YEARGH!! YEARGH I SAY!!

I've been in such a jovial and go-lucky mood for such a good stretch of time, then WHAM...A wall comes up out of nowhere and I'm stuck, feeling trapped in my mind again...All because, I'm worried about voicing an opinion or speaking my mind...Odd...Crazy Sagittarius moon! Why must you impact this crazy Gemini so?!?!