Ending a Chapter

I feel like I am on the verge of something BIG, but I don't know what it is. I was driving home from my friend's place this morning and I just felt like I was on the edge of a cliff (no pun intended) or that some kind of huge change is going to take place. I don't know what it is though. I am leaving my home store and transferring to another, but it feels like more than that. My eyes have been staying at a constant green, and anyone that knows me knows that when this happens, it is some kind of weird sign that something is going to happen. Usually my eyes will be green for a night or day or something, and then something comes along relatively soon. Well, this time they have progressively gotten more and more green, so that leads me to assume that something big is in the midst of the fog. But what is it?
I usually get a little apprehensive when this happens, because whatever it is that my eyes are foreshadowing could be good or bad, but this time, I feel that it isn't going to be bad. I am not scared or nervous about what it is, just curious. Could it be with work? Friends? Love? Money? God I wish I knew. Then it comes down to it where all I can do is wait to see what evolves. I am quite impatient though. I want whatever it is to hurry up, but what exactly is it that I am rushing?
Whatever the case is, I feel very strong at this point in time. Not just physically, but mentally and emotionally. I'm still confused by much of what is happening in my personal life, but I'm not as scared or upset as I was before. I actually feel quite "normal", which is scary because those who know me know that I am anything but! The most I can say is that I cannot be anything I want to be, I can only be me, and maybe I am about to close the chapter of my life where I am trying so hard to be what everyone else thinks I should be, and in the end the heroine will win, and it will only be left one person...the person that is the real me.