Dating = Headache

When did dating get so difficult? I mean, I don't want to sound shady when I say this, but why can't I just get back the mindset I had in my early 20s where it was all about me? Not that I didn't care who I hurt (because I totally did) but I was more willing to take chances and see if something was there or not. Now it feels like every date is one step closer to a lock down. Which (essentially) should be a good thing, but I don't know.

There's just so much swimming through my head - I can't let go of my past (moreover, I don't want to let go of my past because I love him and miss him). Guy #1 I've been friends with for years, and LOVE spending time together, but is there something there? And what if there's not and he gets hurt? Guy #2 is new to the scene, very nice, but sometimes I feel "uncomfortable" in the sense we don't know each other that well. Which can only be rectified by spending more time together. But again, don't want to lead anyone on.

The biggest factor...shouldn't I WANT to see them more? Like when I think of my ex, I'd love to see him everyday (I know, I'm such a stupid girl) but it's legit! I wouldn't mind US getting together all the time...but with the others...it's not like that.

UGGGGGGH. Such a freakin' headache!