Can't Let Go...

I can't let go. I can't do it! And I need to. The only way to move on is to let go, move on. But how do you let go of the one you love? How do you let go of that one person who makes you smile when you're down? Knows just what to say to make you laugh? When he says "I love you" you can feel it in the deepest recesses of your soul?

I don't know. Is it even possible? For happiness? For happiness sake? Can I let go and move on? Move on to someone new? Someone who could potentially love me as much, treat me as well, maybe even fill in the gaps that were agape...when all I can think about is that one person?

So confused. So lost. So uuuugggghhh. I feel like I'm on a merry-go-round. It's fun until the speed picks up. Then I start getting dizzy. Confused. My mind starts to swirl and I can't think straight. And there's no one I can ask. There's no wisdom I can seek. This has got to be on me.

But what happens when "me" doesn't know what to do? When "me" says to give it more time...even though another piece says it's been too long? What happens when "me" says "follow your heart"...but you can hear its beat?