Bittersweet Monday

It's a bittersweet Monday today. I just found out my "what if" got engaged to the girl he had been seeing. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy for him, but I'm not a fan of her.

He and I have had a long-standing past of "we should be together." But time never allowed for it. All of a sudden last year, I was single, he was single and it seemed like things were working in our favor. But then he got back with her, I started dating someone else, and we drifted outwards again. They were on-and-off again, I was on-and-off again, and we still spent time together...until she got stupid and made him de-friend me and stop talking to me.

I get it, the jealousy thing, the thing that drives crazy bitches to give ultimatums (which is, by the way, shitty) I get that. I just don't like it. But I guess it might be a good thing that she made us cut contact, because there would always be those feelings, memories, residual "what if" thoughts that came into play every time we saw each other. Doesn't make it any more easier to deal with though.